Date: Friday, February 04, 2004
Time: 11:00 [pm]

Hey, its been a while i havent been writing in my journal for a while... matter of fact i havent been writing alot period. XD but i guess thats how it is for a high school student. I went to concultation day to see my marks after the exams... I didnt see alot of people, and if i did it wasnt like i was talking to them... they would just pass by me like i wasnt there.. i guess i am use to it... But i did see some people there. While i was getting my marks it was like i was physicaly there but mentaly i was in my own little world. After the marks i just wandered with some people like a tagger, but i saw my friends they just turned their head away from me. Guess life is the same where ever you go. After the expereince i found myself in the art room, when i saw some friends doing there work .. i finaly found a place to gather my thoughts.. and i had this great friend who was always there for me. Even though i know she cant say the same for me. To tell u the truth she is someone i really look up too with all the achievements she has gotten but i dont tell her that. But it really gets me depressed when she does'nt think her achieements are anything and then i just feel like crap. especialy when she says " well its there are you standards" i mean Whats that supose to mean, that i dont have standards? It just makes me think that i dont even have a purpose anymore... guess everyone is trying to say it... just if i am ready to accept it. But i wont because i cant... even with the stress i gotta push threw..... its best if i dont tell anyone at my school what happens..